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Hi frenz! Wow, I’m doing an awesome job at posting more frequently. Oh well!
Life right now is pretty good! I think I’m… doing okay! I’m very broke and a little stressed out by work, but have been feeling a little more motivated lately. I’m trying to eat a little healthier (which means I’m just eating yogurt and salad because I don’t know how to nourish my body) and I’ve been doing the dishes more often lately, so maybe I’m doing better.
It’s about 5 months until we move to Norway and I’m feeling super excited and optimistic about it! America is a flaming shithole right now so I’m VERY eager to get out. I’m taking Norwegian classes and it’s going okay - I need to practice more but it’s at least getting me out of the house once a week.
Bendik and I are busy lil bees! I feel like we go from 0 to 100 a lot. I’m either not showering for 3 days or have a thousand things to do and feel overwhelmed. But we’re trying to say yes to everything before we move so we can spend as much time with friends as possible and do everything fun that the US has to offer! So I’m having a good time in life but also appreciate days when I can just sleep in until 3pm.
I feel like this update was not that informative but life is just good for now! I’m gonna try to capitalize on this “uptime” as much as possible before I get sad again. Fun fact: Norway doesn’t prescribe one of my bipolar medications! So that’s fun and I’m very much looking forward to being miserable for a little while when I move there. Yay!!!!!!!
Love you friends! Bye!
I swear i overthink myself into a bad mood at least 8 times a day
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Like look at this “food” that Norwegians eat??? Is this what the future holds for me???
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I think I’m gonna start writing here more regularly! It feels good to go back and re-read everything that’s happened in the past few years. I wish more of my friends were still updating!!! I love reading about your lives and feelings! Is 2k18 the year we all start tumblelogging again? I hope so. Also I’m updating my screenshots blog again so plz enjoy that window into my brain. Everyone start posting again pleaseeeee!!!
Life update! The rest of my sabbatical was good, except I came home a couple weeks early from Japan because I was too depressed and tired to be alone. So I spent two weeks at home doing not a lot (I went on a hike and to anstamp carving class! And also drank in the park) but I think I really needed some time to completely unwind after traveling so hard. Going back to work was weird! I was pretty zen for like two weeks, but now I feel in the thick of it again. I’m back to being stressed out by everything again, which sucks. I deleted my work email off my phone, though! So I’m at least not checking my email within 30 seconds of waking up anymore. Progress!
Outside of work, things are both amazing and not so amazing. We bought a house in Norway!!!!! It’s the dingy looking house in the pictures. It’s the most fixiest of uppers - there’s literally nothing inside. So we get to renovate it completely! It’ll be SUPER hard work and we don’t have unlimited money so we’ll see how much progress we make, but there will be a ton of room for guests! I really hope my friends and family come visit!!! I don’t wanna feel all alone in norway. It’s in Bendik’s dad’s neighborhood so we’ll at least be close to family. I’m super excited about it and it gives me something to focus on. Now we just have to start the immigration process which is long and bureaucratic. We wanted to keep our American jobs and work from Norway, but I’m not 100% sure that’s gonna work out. It’ll be really stressful if I have to find a new job when I move there, but the nice thing about moving to a socialist utopia is that they won’t let me starve if I can’t find work easily. So I’m not tooooo worried, but it would be nice knowing I don’t have to immediately hit the ground running upon arrival. We’re gonna move in April 2019! Which means we have less than a year left in the Bay Area which is cray. I’m gonna miss SF and my friends and family :( but I can’t think about that yet or else I’ll get too sad.
Speaking of sad, I’m going back to therapy now. Shit was getting too real and I was (am?) losing my grip on life and have serious problems with motivation and social interactions. I feel like I have no emotional energy to give so leaving the house really wears me out and it’s hard to feel happy most of the time. I hope going to therapy helps. It made a huge difference the last time I went regularly so we’ll see what happens this time. I just hate feeling so hopeless and constantly miserable when my life is headed in such a good direction.
What else… idk! I love Bendik so much and he’s the one thing that brings me comfort these days. It’s such a relief that I found my soulmate!!! I don’t know where I’d be without him. He’s truly the best person I know!!!
Also, I turned 30! That was slightly shocking. I’m not a bebe anymore! I usually hate birthdays (there’s so much pressure to be happy!!!) but this one was actually pretty amazing! We had a wonderful dinner at foreign cinema and a friend that works there made sure our meal was lovely, and then we met up with my baby angel friends for some trivia and cupcakes and beer. It was perfect! I #cantrelate to people who throw insane OTT 30th birthday parties in Cabo with 50 of their closest friends. My 30th was perfect and super memorable :)
Hopefully the next time I update I’m not so depressed! It would be nice to have an upbeat post every once in a while. Just not for now! Okay byeeeeeyeyeyeyeye!!!
There’s a difference between being happy and being distracted from sadness
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someone: are you okay?
me: :)
someone: is that a yes?
me: :)
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Myself @ me: you need to wake up earlier so you don’t waste the day
Me @ myself: sorry I was sleeping and just saw this lol wyd
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